From my journal entry dated March 7, 2007:
After being prompted by something I saw in a friend’s Bible, I read Isaiah 40 this evening. I reread vv. 27-31 over and over again, narrowing my selection with each pass. I finally rested on the last bit of v. 28: “his (the Lord’s) understanding no one can fathom.”
As I stared at that verse, I came to realize this is a huge problem I have. Too many thoughts to write about them now. Yet, even as my own words spoken to someone else come back to haunt me, I need to be less focused on my desire to understand and more focused on the need to act in spite of the lack of understanding when it does not easily come. “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding” (Prov. 3:5). Perhaps my insistence on understanding what is going on is my effort to find something other than God to lean on?
